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 Come see Commedia Volante's newest show - Isabella's Folly 

Premiering this weekend at the Northern California Renaissance Faire 

12:15 and 2:15 at the Royal Garden Main Stage 


Also SERENATA will be performing their gorgeous music, at 4:15 at the Royal Garden Main Stage. Come pick up a copy of our CD
 5 things I am grateful for:

1.  The modern convenience of having ice at the ready in my own kitchen

2.  My loving and wonderful friends

3.  Abundant riches

4.  learning to see things from the other side

5. Clean air


Cainer: Sagittarius

Your Week Ahead: The ongoing conjunction of Jupiter and Neptune, in triple alignment with Chiron marks a departure point. You can set off at any moment but it may not happen this week. It's as if you are at a station, waiting for a delayed train. You need to stay near that platform and you mustn't give up hope that your ride is coming. In times to come, you will look back on this time and say, 'This was when something changed for me. It was the time when a penny dropped, a mystery cleared itself up, a decision was reached or a brand new vision presented itself.' Right now, you just feel pressure. Even so, something good is happening.

Your Week Ahead Part Two: Can you do it? That, actually, is the wrong question. A more relevant one is 'Do you really, really want to?' Where there's a will, there's a way. You will need, though, a strong will if you are to find a way forward now. If you suffer a loss of confidence, it will be easy to see your situation as impossible. You may grow aware of a resentment or a reason to feel restricted. It's all very well for your astrologer to say 'just ignore all that', but in practice, the advice won't be easy to take. If, though, you do just resolutely focus on your desire yet remain willing to wait for the right moment, you will arrive at it eventually.


If at some future time you sell your life story to a filmmaker who makes it into a feature film, it may have a lot to do with adventures that kick into high gear in the coming weeks. The fun will start (I hope) when you decide not to merely lie back and be victimized by your signature pain any longer. This brave act will recalibrate the cosmic scales and shift the currents of destiny that flow through you. Soon you will be making progress in untangling a mystery that has eluded your insight for a long time. You will be able to uncover the guarded secrets of a source that has for some time been tweaking your personal power without your full awareness. 


for once they are in agreement.  :)


Tarot card of the day - The Empress

The Empress personifies the inexhaustible power of nature with which she continues to bring forth new life.  She therefore represents liveliness, fertility, growth and the birth of something new.  She is the infinite source of all life which expresses our creative potential and our ability to absorb impulses and let something new arise through them.  This means growth and fertility on the physical level, artistic creativity on the psychological level, imagination and ingenuity on the level of the intellect, and an increase in perception on the level of consciousness.  The continual birth of the new means the constant transformation of our life, as well as the necessity  to bear the pain of these births.



Writer's Block

 So I haven't posted much lately.  I have plenty to say, but for some reason I am in a funk with the writing right now.  

Thought for the day

 May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.

Gratitude for miracle granted

 So this last couple of weeks have been from hell.  So I decided to say a Novena .  While I was praying, I started to smell the distict odor of roses and I got a clear impression in my mind of St. Therese.  I prayed for her to intercede for me.  I also prayed the chaplet of Divine Mercy for the nine days.  I know that sometimes the answer to your prayers is a  definite "no".  You just have to be grateful and believe that there is a divine order to things.  WELL, my faith was  definitely tested yesterday.  On top of all the other issues I was having last week, I got very bad news from the dentist about  an issue I have been having with my teeth and  the icing on the cake was that our car was impounded last night.  Apparently yesterday in Vallejo, they had all of the major thoroughfares had "sobriety checkpoints".  They were running everyone's licenses and registration.  Even though I had some recent paperwork and receipts from the DMV with me, they said that it wasn't "in their computers"  so they impounded the car anyway.  They also ( in the hour I was there)  pulled over at least twenty more cars.  

But then...

I got an unexpected  phone call from a friend that really saved my life last night.  It wasn't the solution to everything, but he gave me the help I needed to get over some serious hurdles.  He was full of love and compassion and generosity.  My cup runneth over and for the first time in months I was able to sleep through the night.

BTW - yesterday was the ninth day of my novena ... Thank you Jesus, Thank you God, Thank you Holy Mother, Thank you St. Therese





Novena Prayer to St. Therese of the Child Jesus

O Little Thérèse of the Child Jesus,
please pick for me a rose from the heavenly garden
and send it to me as a message of love.

O Little Flower of Jesus, ask God, today, to grant
the favors I now place with confidence in your hands.
Tell Him I will love Him each day more and more.

St. Thérèse, help me to always believe, as you did,
in God's great love for me, so that I might imitate
your "Little Way" each day. Amen.

(Say 24 "Glory be" prayer below... between the "Glory be", say,
"St. Therese of the Child Jesus, pray for us.")

Glory be to the Father, to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be,
world without end. Amen.

Most Blessed Trinity, Father, Son and Holy Spirit,
I ask you thru the merits of St. Therese of the Child Jesus,
during the 24 years of her earthly life,
to obtain for me thru her intercession the grace (mention your request)


A very special chair for sale

I need your help. I need to raise some emergency cash very quickly. So with much sorrow, I am looking to sell an antique chair that I own, or use it as collateral for a loan. 

This is a very special chair. It is medieval...not a replica. The story is that my father's voice teacher was a German national who was in Berlin during the May Day invasion in 1945. The chair was one of the last remaining artifacts from a 14th century mediaeval church that had been bombed. She salvaged it and a few other artifacts. She passed and left everything to my father. My father passed and left it to me. 

I has never been stripped, or refinished, it has the original patina. Of course there are some scratches. It is remarkably sturdy. There are no nails in it. It has a beautiful tree of life carving on the backboard. 

I am offering it to all of my friends that I know are historical enthusiast. Please pm me if interested. I need to raise funds ASAP, so a quick response is needed. And yes, I have tried many an auction house.  



Thoughts become things

 Lately I have been feeling terribly isolated.  I work alone during the day and have little interaction at night with Maurice.  He is too exhausted to talk, and basically wants to shut down completely when he gets home.  I can't blame him though, he works a 12 to 14 hour day on average.  

I believe in the law of attraction, I know it is important to have positive happy thoughts all the time so that you will attract the good things to you.  However it is  a real struggle because I suffer from real depression and have no health insurance .  So, it is very difficult to keep good thoughts in my head, sometimes.  I have, over the last few months been struggling more and more with feelings of being isolated and feeling like no one is communicating with me.  I haven't shared some really scary problems that I am having right now with anyone because I don't feel like anyone has the time for me.  I can't blame them, I get sick of me too, sometimes.  I recently was betrayed badly and am very hurt.    And I think the problem is far worse than I have been lead to believe.

Well all those thoughts have manifested themselves into reality.  I have had important mail and correspondence get lost or never received.  Which has now really hurt someone I care about.  Important emails are missing.  My cell phone died a horrible death and the SIM card is not reading correctly.  On Monday, the city sent out notices that water and electricity will be randomly shut off during the week  for maintenance.  So, no email, no tv, no radio, no phone.   Then the house across the street has had the road blocked off for an earthquake retrofit. So, I have to change my train of thought and get out of this funk.  I just don't know how.  My mother always said to me, "this crap only happens to you, Roxanne."  A statement which makes the added assumption that I am exaggerating or lying.  It just isn't true.

I feel like muddy water is constantly being poured over my head and I can't see where to go.  

Dream chronicle

 I know that if you remember your dreams, you should write them down  They are windows into your subconscious and have messages for you.  

So I keep dreaming about the town I grew up in.  La Crescenta is just a few miles outside of Glendale California.  It is on the side of a mountain and it has a lot of craftsman style homes built with a lot of stone work. tiered gardens. lots of pine trees.  I dreamt of our old house on Mayfield.  It had a large basement/cellar that was used as our laundry room.  It also had a large crawl space.  I dreamt that my mother had left things there and that they were stored in the basement.  I was looking through them and I was finding thing that I needed and had been missing all of these years.  I thought they had been thrown out .  The basement was a mess and I could barely get through the piles of stuff.  I then found myself at my old school, it had changed a lot and it was busy with activity.  The school had rented out rooms for trade schools at night.  There were students there for culinary school that night.  I then was wearing a black jacket that I kept pulling chocolate bars and 20 dollar bills out of the pocket.

I have no idea what these mean yet.  I'll have to mediate on it
 1.  Getting a small sign form St Michael, that I am protected
2.  Spending time with lovely people and really joyful children this weekend
3.  Having an audience really enjoy our work
4.  Mo is so loving and supportive.  I am a lucky girl
5. Painful separations and moving on.  Sometimes it really is for the best.

Sagittarius, Thursday, 25 June 2009

You are wrestling with a question that cannot be answered. That is like trying to fight an opponent who cannot be beaten. What on earth is the point? You feel that you cannot just 'do nothing'. You have to do your best. Of course you do. But doing your best involves recognising the reality of a situation. You can't fight an unbeatable enemy but you can avoid, escape or ignore the antagonist. Likewise, with regard to the question, you can leave it unanswered. Let it go. You don't need to know what you think you need to know.


A guy I barely know critiqued me at a party recently. "You haven't suffered enough to feel intense passion," he said. "Your life has been too happy, too easy." I didn't want to get into a debate about whether my life has been too happy and easy, so in my reply I didn't mention my divorce or the time I was shot or the grueling poverty I endured for 18 years. "So you're saying," I told him, "that suffering is the only way you can acquire passion? I don't agree. Have you ever raised a child? Have you ever been in love with someone who incited you to make radical changes in your life? Have you ever worked on a creation for many years and then submitted it to be judged by thousands of people? I have." I'm letting you know about this, Sagittarius, because I predict you'll soon be offered an experience like those I named -- adventures that have the potential to build intense passion without requiring you to suffer. 




This positive card represents the principle of higher reason.  It shows that you are infused with the power of perspective that leads to clarity, lucidity and resolution.  Your mind is affected in an illuminated clearing and freeing manner.  You are able to analyze problems without losing perspective of the whole picture.


Saint of the day - John the Baptist

Patron saint of converts, baptism, epileptics, visionaries

Returning to the old me?

 I am very overweight.  One of the reasons is that I "eat" my emotions.  I am afraid of them.  Sometimes the are so overpowering, I am afraid of the destruction that will be there in their wake.  Sometimes I feel that if I start crying , I'll never stop.

Yesterday, I did something I haven't done in many years.  I completely lost my temper at someone.  I have complete regret that I did this.  But, I just couldn't hold it in anymore.  Didn't sleep all night.  It is 7:50 in the morning and I am still just as angry.

I wish this would pass